How I love my shame!
A familiar and safe place
that shows how good I am.
A place where no one can hurt me
since they already see how sorry I am.
As a child I learned go to there
to earn approval,
to demonstrate I am respectable
and will never act the same way again,
even if my way was right.
I enjoyed dwelling in it
since it assured me of my own righteousness:
If I stay here long enough I will be healed,
I will convince myself that I am a worthy man
who knows how to punish himself.
The fallacy has finally disappeared,
the chains of shame have fallen
and my eyes are wide open.
For the first time in my life
I know what Freedom means.
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